Five years ago, I can remember clearly the intense clarity I was downloading. It scared the crap out of me.
I knew that the aches and pains my body was experiencing, was not a coincidence. I had been practicing yoga for over a year, but I had to constantly attend those classes to experience a brief feeling of freedom and relief. The fact that I had to go back, every single day, to reconnect with that feeling of ease, felt intuitively off to me.
WAS THIS HOW IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE?
I knew in my heart, that I was facing my crossroads. I knew my body was screaming at me, and trying to teach me a lesson. I knew my inner guidance system, my intuition, was starting to brew.
My role as a police officer served me in many many ways, that I am now deeply grateful for.
Like the pre-training; challenging myself to commit to a career path, and going for it, the fact that my small 5’2, 115 lb frame was able to rock out 25 chin ups, 50 push ups and bench press my bodyweight. This all gave me confidence that I was strong enough to do anything.
The way I was able to confidently complete my interview process (even though I was shaking in my boots).
The way I showed up to my first few emergency calls and was able to act like I knew what I was doing (when I really had no clue).
The courage I developed pulling over gang members and shaking them down.
It served me.
It brought me to my crossroads.
And for that I’m forever grateful.
But something was shifting, and deep within, I couldn’t ignore it.
Maybe you can relate?
WHAT’S GOING ON, AT YOUR CROSSROADS?WHAT IS YOUR BODY DESPERATELY TRYING TO TELL YOU?
For me, I began to feel heavy. Even though I had developed this strength, this courage, this beautiful salary that I was proud of, my body started to fail on me.
My heart began to feel heavy. My chest began to sink. There were certain days that loading my gun and stacking it in it’s holster felt scary, not because I wasn’t trained to do so. It felt scary because I was becoming so numb to the daily routine. My body was becoming so heavy, that I feared the simple task of loading my pistol in it’s holster properly. That’s how heavy my fingers felt.
The gal who chased that police badge with strength, excitement, courage, and tenacity... she was falling apart.
I started to think about what would happen, if I didn’t make a change?
I started to think about my future.
As a newly married woman, my husband and I would chat about our goals of having a large family one day. We would visualize 3-4 kids, running around a spacious property in the country. The visual however, was Mom and Dad playing with them and thriving with them. Being fully present for them and taking in all those precious moments.
I STARTED TO GET REAL WITH MYSELF.
How on earth was I supposed to do that?
What type of message would I be passing on to my children if Mom could barely get through the day? I knew I would have the courage to “push through”, but what kind of message would that really be sending?
My concern was, that I was working hard to remove the intense overwhelm and nothing was working.
I was eating healthy.
I was avoiding the caffeine, alcohol and energy drink addictions that many of my co-workers and fellow shift workers had succumbed to.
I was practicing yoga regularly and even started to attend a few week long yoga retreats. During those retreats I felt lit up. On fire. Free.
But once I returned to the daily grind the overwhelm was back.
So, I had to make a choice. I could allow the thoughts of “This is just how it’s meant to be” control my life and my outcome, or I could make a change.
I decided that I was worth that change.
I decided that my health and freedom were going to come first.
I knew instinctively that I had what it took to lead a very different life and although the picture was not completely clear, I was willing to pick up a paintbrush and develop a new sense of courage. I was willing to fall to my knees and declare that I didn’t know the answers. But, I was willing to see and experience a different way.
When I simply surrendered and decided to do that, a new way found me.
Fast forward a few years later, I have an expansive and rapidly growing 6-figure business, and much of that is passive income, meaning I get paid while I sleep. (I sought out ways to do that so I could align my vision for health and freedom with my new career.)
ALL I HAD TO DO WAS TRUST MY JOURNEY AND BE OPEN TO CHANGE.
I had to switch my perspective and see my crossroads as a gift. I had to learn to access my intuition so I could discover where I was being guided.
Trust is my daily mantra. Grace became my BFF.
And together, the 3 of us have cultivated a dynamic team.
It’s now my passion and my mission to help other women recognize that your crossroads is exactly where you’re meant to be. The struggle IS real, but it’s a gift.
IT’S WHAT YOU CHOOSE TO DO WITH THAT GIFT, THAT WILL IMPACT YOUR DESTINY.
First and foremost, you need to get clear on the signs. You need to take an honest inventory. I believe the women who are creating real freedom, are the one’s who have the courage to go within, first.
I’ve already mentioned a few of the signs, but after mentoring many women, I believe the top 5 indicators that you’ve hit a similar crossroads in your career, are as follows:
You’re constantly tired and no matter what you do, your energy feels drained.
The negativity of your surroundings starts to annoy and irritate you.
You feel unsupported and unheard by your boss and co-workers.
You’re trying everything to stay healthy. You’re hitting your yoga mat, or that step class, maybe you’re reading all the best self-help books, you’re meditating,, you’re cleaning out the toxins in your home. You have brief periods of feel good freedom, but for the most part, you still feel like poop, no matter what you try.
You’ve had enough and you’re open to change.
IF THIS IS YOU, I HAVE A SPECIAL GIFT THAT I CREATED. AND IT’S JUST FOR YOU.
You see, when I was at my crossroads, I had this one divine moment. I collapsed in my police car one day and felt intuitively guided to surrender. The process I took myself through helped me develop the trust that I mentioned and I started to discover my path, pretty much immediately.
It 100% changed my life.
If you’re open to creating a shift and starting the process of attracting deep clarity so you can understand what your crossroads means and the path that you’re meant to take... the path that is aligned with your most authentic and creative self... the path where you absolutely start to feel free... then I want you to download this 10-min meditation.
It’s short. It’s simple.
And it works!
If you’re ready to gain clarity on the next step you're meant to take, then you can’t afford NOT to do this.